I do not know what to say,as I lie face down
Silent tears slowly wetting the pillows
As i gather my thoughts of hatred and pain and anger for having let myself be vulnerable
I feel like the innocent person being taken to the gallows
I reflect on the past, of the countless instances
Where I had given others a chance,
Trusted them beyond all doubts
Like a girl in sweet sixteen, experiencing her first romance
I do not know whom to trust anymore,
For they sooner or later leave me for greener pastures
Whom I call true friends turn their back on me
And I am looking for a way to find closure
What is true friendship? I am left wondering
Is it something that exists only in stories
Is it something like Santa Claus? That we tell our children
As a way to keep them toe the line and have no worries
For I have felt wronged and deeply wounded
Each time I have left myself vulnerable
Most wounds heel over a period of time, as you forget those thoughts
But will I be able to forget this??? Am I that capable?
Life teaches you never to expect anything good
In that way, even if you do find something, you feel great
I lie here again, tears rolling down my cheek
Reflecting on my past, of my ill fate.
HBK
