Until We Meet Again...

I walk the long winding road ahead of me
Hoping to reach my destination hitherto unknown
Dark and dusty, not a soul in sight
I walk this path, empty and forlorn

The path seem familiar, like I have been here before
But that would be impossible, as I am hoping for a new start
A new wake of life, new possibilities and new acquaintances
But it all seems the same to me deep inside my heart

The bright sunny days have long gone, to be replaced by murky weather
The skies are dark, there is a storm brewing
The clap of thunder, the lightning fork in the horizon
Tells a story of change, my trepidations about which is growing

I take shelter from the impending storm
which as promised is rough and hostile
I fall asleep in my little refuge I have, hoping for a new dawn
Praying that my efforts for a better future was not futile

The skies clear soon enough, paving way for my journey ahead
The world seems so fresh, the earthly scent titillating my senses
I ready myself for the challenges awaiting me
To a new wake of life, new times, dropping all pretenses

It is a new beginning, these are unchartered waters
These are exciting times, expectations and hopes galore
I take that first step, after all those trials and tribulations
To a new beginning, a way I am yet to explore

We leave behind those who meant so much to us in our journey so far
But are we really, when inside us their thoughts and memories reign
Do not despair this is not good bye,
Just a brief pause, until we meet again

Until we meet again....

Musings of a jobless mind

I can't feel the difference between yesterday and today
I can't discern the changes in night and day
I try to break the shackles, but it keeps binding ever so tighter
I try to escape from this quicksand, but it keeps pulling me ever so deeper.

Many have tried and many have failed
To make sense out of this mundane world
Yet, I still hope that one day I can crack the code
before it is too late, before all hell breaks loose

I try to keep my emotions in check, failing spectacularly all the time
I hope to keep going, even when my knees are giving themselves away
I press the panic button, hoping for someone to come for my aid
As that is all I can do, keep your faith and pray

One day, I might actually succeed, might sprout wings to soar
Far away from this insanity, this craziness that engulfs me
And one day, I might be able to look back and smile on all things gone by
The journey might have been rough,
But hey, atleast I got the window seat to enjoy the view.

A true way to lose yourself...

I lie with my eyes wide open. The gentle breeze try to sooth me. But the heat had taken its toll. I lie there with not the slightest energy to gather myself and have a glass of water. The heat had been incredible. Never had I felt so much spent.

I try to turn sideways. I gently prod the external mouse attached to my laptop. The screen slowly comes to my focus. I found that my play list had stopped. It was one of my favorite theme songs. Soundscape to Ardor... You gotta listen to it to appreciate the true beauty of this one. You will appreciate it more when you feel that you have reached your limit. How apt that this was the song waiting for one click from my mouse tip to play and gently take me back to sleep...

For all those who have not heard it... Hear it... appreciate it... Get ready to be lost in the magic of music... Find it below... Heavenly music

17 soundscape to Ardor

Just close your eyes and listen

One request to all... If you have a headphone, please use it and hear it in full volume... Believe me... it is worth it

True Friends... A myth or reality???

I do not know what to say,as I lie face down

Silent tears slowly wetting the pillows

As i gather my thoughts of hatred and pain and anger for having let myself be vulnerable

I feel like the innocent person being taken to the gallows

I reflect on the past, of the countless instances

Where I had given others a chance, 

Trusted them beyond all doubts

Like a girl in sweet sixteen, experiencing her first romance

I do not know whom to trust anymore, 

For they sooner or later leave me for greener pastures

Whom I call true friends turn their back on me

And I am looking for a way to find closure

What is true friendship? I am left wondering

Is it something that exists only in stories

Is it something like Santa Claus? That we tell our children

As a way to keep them toe the line and have no worries

For I have felt wronged and deeply wounded

Each time I have left myself vulnerable

Most wounds heel over a period of time, as you forget those thoughts

But will I be able to forget this??? Am I that capable?

Life teaches you never to expect anything good

In that way, even if you do find something, you feel great

I lie here again, tears rolling down my cheek

Reflecting on my past, of my ill fate.

HBK

Fading to Oblivion

I wait for a while in this dimly lit street
Its the time when the birds retreat
I've been waiting for someone to show me the way
The one that I lost as you led me astray.

My life has been like a spinning top
Going around in circles.
With no real purpose, until you came along.

I have been here before, I remember vaguely
It used to be so bright as we walked slowly
Hand in hand, it seemed so surreal
I should have known, it was too good to be real

Now I feel like the wind in my sails have been taken away
Like a horse whose rider has fallen
There is no joy, no pain, just plain numbness
As I stand alone reflecting on myself.

I see a silhouette, in the distant horizon
There is still hope, or is it a false dawn?
The person is not moving, in fact even retreating
As all my hopes comes crashing down to earth.

Why am I alone, why do I have to suffer?
I ask thy my almighty lord
When you are smiling, the whole world laughs with you
But when things go southwards...???

We are lost in this world. Things moving too fast.
The tiny rays of hope keeping us going
The more you try to hold on to something, like water in your hands
Slowly seeps away, with only memories remaining

To remind you of those blissful times, those moments
When you had not a worry, not a care about anything
Slowly they move away, gently and gradually picking up speed
Till they are seen no more, truly FADING TO OBLIVION

A day in the life of a Software Techie...

Well...

This will be interesting... Where to begin... I guess I will go with my experiences....That ought to be fun....

Its 8 in the morning....The sunlight is seeping through the window, gently prodding to get me awake... second by second, minute by minute, the intensity is increasing. You are in some dream (which I always forget as soon as I wake up). Suddenly you feel someone screaming in pain from far away. You are drawn towards the sound. Gradually the screams gets nearer and nearer, you open your eyes only to find that the scream was the alarm that had been set in your mobile.

You curse anything and everything. Its not a good thought that you have to go to office. The same drill follows. You somehow manages to get yourself out of the house and find a bus to take you to office. You feel like the helpless animals that are being taken to the slaughterhouse. All bleak.

Finally you reach your office. As soon as you open your system and check your mails, you find that someone somewhere has committed to provide something that you have to somehow manage to do. You straightaway get to the job at hand. You forget to even greet the person in the next seat. He do not have the time to do that likewise. You wait for the clock to tick. It seems time has decided to go in slow-motion today. You sweat out even though the AC is on in full force.

Finally it is time to go home as the clock strikes 7 (usual for any techie) . Or is it??? Just as you are about to log out and leave for the day. You see your manager coming up to you carrying his/her luggage(read Laptop and Lunch box) asking you to do something and promptly carries on. You curse that person then and there but what to do? It is quite but natural for anyone to feel cheated when that person is going home and you are having to mop up for the shoddy work that person did.

You grudgingly complete the work. You don't dare to leave without completing the work even though the manager is not around. Finally by the time you reach home, you are so tired that sometimes all you do is slip into the bed and the light just goes out. Next thing you remember is the same kind of dream and the screaming voice which turns out to be the damn alarm again.

I think all of us software techies can somehow relate these chain of events to what is happening in their lives currently. I will be back shortly with more. Until then... Au revoir

First impression--->is it the best impression seriously???

15 Nov 2007, 01:38 hrs

Hi all,

Well this is my first so called blog. Having never written any such thing b4, i am writing this one. They say the first impression is the best impression. I ask is it always so? Is there any rule which states this? Well for one thing I can think of many things whose importance or value is not so obvious at the start. But as time moves on you get the important and usefulness of this.

For example when you are born you are born you have a tongue which is useful only for tasting and swallowing food. But as time progresses this same tongue helps in speaking. The importance of the tongue is not so obvious in the beginning for anyone but then again is it not that important? Agreed that for a small child he may not begin to think of anything at such a young age. But it is for the sake of the argument that i am stating this.

Myself being a great football fan and in particular a fan of Manchester United Football Club, I can think of many instances in football where when you play for the first time you put in one of your worst performances and still go on to be great in the game. The reverse is also true. Sometimes you can have an explosive start to your career only to be lost in oblivion.

All this first if spoiled, rest will follow idea is stupid and needs to be reconsidered. Just think of all the ppl who are losing opportunities in all phases of life due to this stupid notion that First Impression is the best Impression.
All this needs to be rectified. It might help both the parties involved for a way ahead in life.