A true way to lose yourself...

I lie with my eyes wide open. The gentle breeze try to sooth me. But the heat had taken its toll. I lie there with not the slightest energy to gather myself and have a glass of water. The heat had been incredible. Never had I felt so much spent.

I try to turn sideways. I gently prod the external mouse attached to my laptop. The screen slowly comes to my focus. I found that my play list had stopped. It was one of my favorite theme songs. Soundscape to Ardor... You gotta listen to it to appreciate the true beauty of this one. You will appreciate it more when you feel that you have reached your limit. How apt that this was the song waiting for one click from my mouse tip to play and gently take me back to sleep...

For all those who have not heard it... Hear it... appreciate it... Get ready to be lost in the magic of music... Find it below... Heavenly music

17 soundscape to Ardor

Just close your eyes and listen

One request to all... If you have a headphone, please use it and hear it in full volume... Believe me... it is worth it

True Friends... A myth or reality???

I do not know what to say,as I lie face down

Silent tears slowly wetting the pillows

As i gather my thoughts of hatred and pain and anger for having let myself be vulnerable

I feel like the innocent person being taken to the gallows

I reflect on the past, of the countless instances

Where I had given others a chance, 

Trusted them beyond all doubts

Like a girl in sweet sixteen, experiencing her first romance

I do not know whom to trust anymore, 

For they sooner or later leave me for greener pastures

Whom I call true friends turn their back on me

And I am looking for a way to find closure

What is true friendship? I am left wondering

Is it something that exists only in stories

Is it something like Santa Claus? That we tell our children

As a way to keep them toe the line and have no worries

For I have felt wronged and deeply wounded

Each time I have left myself vulnerable

Most wounds heel over a period of time, as you forget those thoughts

But will I be able to forget this??? Am I that capable?

Life teaches you never to expect anything good

In that way, even if you do find something, you feel great

I lie here again, tears rolling down my cheek

Reflecting on my past, of my ill fate.

HBK